My mom passed on this evening.

[blown96bird]

My mom lost here battle with cancer this evening shortly before 10PM. We fought this as hard as we could for over a year. Words can not describe the grief and sadness I am feeling right now. My moms name is pamela S Watson. Steven T Watson
Blown96bird@hotmail.com

[68COUGAR]

When we burried my nephew, I cried like i baby.

Strength to You & Yours!!!!

68COUGAR

[CMac89]

Must be horrible. I couldn't imagine losing a parent. She is in a better place and feels no more pain.

My condolences.

[mannysc]

sorry to hear of your loss.
i lost my brother in febuary and can relate to the feeling of sorrow and pain,
it seems hard and like we wont get thru it but we do life goes on even though we sometimes wish we could take 5 from it.
there are no words we can give to helpmake it hurt less,
but we can help you out with a open ear. so you can talk about your feelings.

I know to well that the best thing that happened to me was the support of my friends and being able to talk to them.
when ever I needed a shoulder to cry on. we can be there for you.
I will be there for you if your just bored or sad hey give me a email
mannysc@msn.com or call me 909-475-8352 ill listen and maybe help you with some prayers or just an ear.

we all get thru it differently me i just needed to vent and stay busy.

still not over my pain.
I asked my dad when does the pain end he said never and it never hurts less but it does get put farther away from our everyday life as time goes on .

but its there instantly everytime you think of them.

once again sorry for the loss of your mom. she made you so she was a sucsess and she raised you up right. your a testimony to her love.

make her proud .

in the end we will all meet again in heaven so you have not lost her only taken a small time from each other.

in the end we will all be reunited with our loved ones .

here is something i do when i get depressed i think of the funny stuff the person did and it makes me smile and that makes me remember more funny stuff. next thing you know your not sad anymore . remember the hugs kisses smiles that is the real person we loved the happy loving person.

opps sorry to ramble on god bless you and your loved ones .

[Ddubb]

I lost my father 10 years ago after a heart attack. Life has been pretty hard since then. In the past few years some of my friends have also lost their fathers, one to cancer and another with an anneurism. We talked alot, and they asked me how to deal with it .. and the best advice I can say is to remember what they were in your life, and never forget the memories.

- Dan

[seawalkersee]

Steve, I know that you and I are close to the same age. It is never easy losing a loved/close one but when you are still short of 30, it is harder. It seems that when a person has their life cut short, that there is an angry feeling that goes with it. I have been fortunate so far but my mother in law has probably less then ten years left too. I hope you and your family can still have a good relationship after dealing with the hardship.

I will hold you in my prayers as well as the family of Joel Benders.

Chris

[Conan56]

Im sorry to hear of your loss

I also lost my Father a few years ago at age 49
It was very hard to deal with, The only thing that comfort me was the idea that he was no longer suffering. I think watching my father deteriorate was harder to deal with then the actual Death.

God Bless your Mother and Im sure shes in a better place

Once again sorry to hear of your Loss

[1FASTSC]

Sorry for your loss.


let me know if I can help.

[Michael Mattix]

Sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my dad at 44 when I was 24. I sat around for a while in a daze. My dad went fast, so I am thankful for that. He had an aortic anneurism. If they would have been able to save him, he would have been a vegetable because of no blood supply to the brain for so long. It still hurts to this day, and ironicly, I use to think when I was growing up, that mom was the good one and I didn't understand why he acted the way he did. Well, now I'm in his shoes with two children and I'm saying the exact things that he said. I am fortunate to still have my mother and both sets of Grandparents. I really felt sorry for my father's parents. Having to lose a son. Whew. I hope I do not go through that. BUt, what makes me happier is that I believe that he was needed in heaven for a reason and it was just his time. I believe your mom was needed too for her special talents. I am sorry for mentioning my beliefs and if you have different ones, I am not trying to make my beliefs yours. Keep your chin up, your mom would have probably wanted you to be as happy as you can be. If you live your life to make you happy, your mom will be happy. I am sorry for your loss.

[onequiksc]

All my thoughts are with you today, please take care of yourself. You will get through this.

[ThunderDave]

It's always hard losing a parent, cause I think we just assume they'll always be here since they have. My mom died from cancer when I was 12 years old. I'll be 43 next month and I miss her as much now as I did when she died.

My God give you and your family strength to make it through this difficult time.

[hytorksc]

I went thru this 9 years ago with my father, we were both very close. I still haven't forgotten the pain over this, but i'm at peace about it. Even now he still talks to me in a spiritual way i think. Your mom will always be with you as long as she is still in your memory. My condolences to you and your family.

[DamonSlowpokeBaumann]

sorry to hear that. My payers are with you and yours

[Jim Demmitt Jr]

"We are with you"

I know how you feel, I lost my father Sept 12, 2003 we where very close racing together doing fun things on weekends. I felt and still feel lost things will never be the same but life goes on it may be hard but you got wonderful memories and times together to remember. She will always be with you in your heart hang in there "SC Friend"

[David Neibert]

Steve,

I'm sorry for your loss, but I'm glad your mom is no longer suffering.

David

[joenintiesc]

Steve,

That's terrible news that you lost your mom. I wish you and your family strength and comfort during this sad and diffult period.

Joe

[Mike8675309]

Life can sure throw you curve balls. make sure you take care of yourself.

[mkeethler]

God will walk with you.

[Scott Long]

I'm sorry I don't really know what to say. I am lucky both of my parents are still in good health. My grandfather however is having a battle with cancer and I know first hand what a horrible disease it is. I will miss him so much when he passes on but its so hard to see him suffer. He can hardly eat any food and it just makes him sick since he had the radiation treatment.

I've lost friends over the past few years and it makes me sad to think about them but I look back to the fun we had hanging out and I just thank god that I was able to know them and hope I made their time here more enjoyable as they made my life more enjoyable by knowing them. I still stop by my friend Sarah's resting place when I drive through that town and say a few words to her. I also pick up around her stone if there is any debris blowing through the cemetary.

I guess like others have said, you will miss your mother terribly, but its selfish to try and keep someone here if they are suffering. She is in a better place. We will miss our lost ones but to know that god is taking care of them and that they are watching us should make us strive harder to do the right thing and live a good life. Just think if you are in a situation and think to yourself "who would know? no one can see me." your mother is watching you from heaven and is expecting you to make her proud. Live your life to the fullest and enjoy the time you spend with friends and family. Cherish every day that you get to spend here because its only temporary. I believe this is a test, and that heaven is forever. She will be waiting to see you again when your time here is done.

I know its hard. It's bringing back memories of my loved ones just by typing this, so I know what your going through but not to the extent of a parent. I know we expect our parent's to be here forever since they have taken care of us and looked over us since we were born and now without someone to go to for help/answers it will be confusing. If you can learn anything from this, strengthen the bonds with the rest of your family. All the money, fame, big houses, cars, vacations, don't mean anything, your family should come first and when the rest comes, enjoy it with them.

Please take some time to grieve and don't hold it in and try to be macho. Some people try not to feel the pain and hold it in but some day it will come out or you'll have an anxiety attack and be no better off. I know this doesn't make it better but stay strong.

I'll say a prayer for you and your loved ones to be strong and come out of this a stronger closer family. May god be with you.

[XR7 Dave]

Steve,

I hate to hear things like this affecting friends. I can't imagine how tough it would be or how empty you probably feel. The only words of encouragement I can offer is to ask you to hold on to what you know your mother wanted for you. Vow to work hard to make her wishes for you a reality. I think that's the best thing you can do for her memory and for your future.

David

[95pearlbird]

Dear Steve,
We are all sorry for your loss. Sometimes it seems the pain and loss are too much to bear. The burden feels like it is just too much to bear.
Sorry does not make it feel any less. Sorrow is a tough emotion to bear, as it
does not depart us easily, and seemingly has no end to its depth...
There is so much that we do not understand at times.

Here are a couple of things that have helped me get thru these times....

Feel the heartache and allow it to come out. Do not bottle it up or stuff it down within you. We are meant to feel this to understand the deeper meanings of love, and our love for our loved ones. It does not make you less of a man, or a person, to feel these emotions. Cry if you feel the need to, and let it out. It actually will make you more of a man in the long run to express what you feel. As men, we have a tendency to bottle it up, to "be strong". True Strength is in allowing yourself to feel all your emotions, be they glad OR sad. It is perfectly natural, and will make you more of a loving person to know what grief is, so you can better understand what love is, and share that love more fully with those around you. Know that is tough to get thru, not fun, and never easy, but if you accentuate the positive, wherever you can find it, you will find an inner strength to help ease the burden.

Do not get angry. Anger will not help, it is only destructive, and will only be corrosive to the vessel that contains it.

Realize that no one escapes death. We all are born, and we all will die, someday, sooner or later. Death is an intrisnic part of the circle of life.
Often it is harder on those of us that feel left behind, than it is for the one that passes on to the other side. Understand that what makes love so special, is that the love itself, that spirit, never dies. Your memories together will always be there for you to cherish, and in remembering them, you send that same love back to her. Just because she can't acknowledge it does not mean that she can't feel it. She can, believe it, so send it often, that she may receive your love instead of sadness. With that same love, she wants you to live on and be happy, not sad. The depth of your sadness reflects the depth of your love for her. Everything in life has a balance, one evens out the other.

I had a really good friend that died in a racing accident, suddenly and un-expectedly. It all seemed so unfair. He was a great, kind person that got ripped from the arms of life, through no fault of his own. He was loved by many, in all walks of life. His name was Danny Hamel, and this happened over 10 years ago, in the early stages of the Baja 500. He was a talented champion in every respect. Over 3,000 people traveled to be at his funeral. There was an overwhelming sense of grief and sadness at his loss. No one got to tell him goodbye in life, and he was such a good person, no one could understand how he could be taken away so quickly, for no reason at all.
There was no understanding of the reason why, and there still isn't.

This came to me after his funeral, sitting in my car on a hill, overlooking the scene, barely able to see, my mind numb with grief and sadness. My heart felt ripped apart. I believe it to be Heaven-sent. I received it in one short, condensed, un-edited burst of thought and emotion, and I will never forget it, just as I will never forget any of those whom I have loved that are no longer here. It applies equally to anyone that we have loved that is no longer here with us. I do not believe that it was sent to me just for that time, or just for him. I shared it with a huge photo I made for Danny's parents, and they found comfort in it, as have others others over the years, and now, I share it with you, and everyone else who seeks to understand the grief and loss that goes along with death... It is very simple, easy to understand, and comforting...

The message simply said:

"A piece of my Heart will always be with you. But then, I will always have that piece of yours, that you gave to me. Thank You. I Love You."

Within this message, at that time of sadness, I found joy.
I Thank God for it, and share it freely. May you also!
~Peace from an SC brother~

[blown96bird]

Mom found out last year in febuary that she had stage 3 in one lung and stage 4 lung cancer in the other along with cancer in the lympth glands and near here spine. In july I left my job and took mom everywhere back and forth to work and the doctors. I drove mom everywhere and took care of mom every day 7 days a week. Mom accidently put he civic up on one of thoes concrete deviders but did not wreck. I drove mom everywhere after that. Mom had to keep working to keep the medical insurance up. Back in september moms pet scan showed she was cancer free. I thought mom was getting better. We bought mom a silver tbird to replace the civic I destroyed in a bad accident.

I really thought mom was getting better. In november mom started having trouble with her left hand. In the middle of december the doctors found the brain toumor on the right side. It was 40 mm right after it was removed mom instantly got better. and towards the end of febuary mom improved. Mom lost here appitite and would not eat or drink enough. We put her into the hospital 3 times. she refused a feeding tube the first 2 times. We had a feeding tube put in the last time. I thought mom was going to get better but she got worse every day. About 2 weeks ago I took mom into her doctors appointment.

We found out that the lung that had the cancer so bad has collapased. They sent us home with hospice care. It killed me to be seing mom getting worse and worse every day and suffering. She was ready to go and be with god and she told me several times and was mad at us for keeping here alive and not letting her pass on.

My dad tom watson and brother brian watson were there along with me and we were with mom as we were holding moms hands when we watched her pass at 9:55 PM. When mom passed all our dogs inside and outside the house begain howling. They knew that mom was gone. I could feel moms soul leave her body and I knew she was gone. Mom was ready to go to heaven.

A day or two before mom passed she was calling to my aunt norma and great grandmaw linn and here dogs ivan and poepo that all passed. My mom told me happy birthday on the 4th.

I am glad that I had the time to take care of mom every day for the last year.

Yesterday we went to the funerl home and made the arangements. I had a very time picking mom a coffin and while doing it I hyperveltlated twice and almost passed out. I felt like throwing up all the time. This is extreemly hard. In the last year I have cried more than the previous 35 year combined. It wears you out and makes you tired.

[pablon2]

Steve,
I am very sorry to hear about your loss. As kids I think we believed our parents would always be there, b/c in most cases they are/were. As my parents go through their 60s I find myself thinking about the fact that they will not always be there. Then I pick up the phone and call them to say hi. My dad is in his 10th year of remission from non-hodgskins lymphoma. He is doing well, but could have just as easily gone the other route too. You and your family are in my prayers.

[Tim Groth]

I'm sorry to hear about your lose. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

-Tim

[ThunderDave]

Steve, I posted this a while back for a members mom that had passed away and also over on tccoa for Joel Bender.

I thought I'd share it with you and your family too.

http://www.sccoa.com/forums/showthread.php?t=53550&highlight=rose+blooms

[skydivr7673]

My sincere condolences to you and your family. I am a cancer survivor myself, so I know a bit about that battle. Four surgeries and 11 months of chemo later, but it all still feels like yesterday to me. We will keep you in our prayers. She is in a better place now, and she is finally not hurting anymore, and I hope that you can find some comfort in that.

[thirdbird]

I am sorry to hear about your loss.
Many members of my family have suffered a similar fate.
I am glad like mine, yours no longer suffers.

paul

[no164ford]

I am sorry to hear of your loss. It gets better in time, but still hurts years later. I lost my dad a few years ago, we were vary close we built my 64 ford f-100 tons of hours working, jokeing and fighting it was alot of fun. We spent days on end going to car shows and Carlise allmost every weekend out on the boat fishing, Hell we even worked at the same place. He was in great health at 60 years old one day took a stroke and one week later he passed away. I know what you are saying about the false hope for the first 3 days they said he would make a full recovery then he took anouther stroke and passed 4 days later while I was with him, That hurts. Infact now allmost 3 years later I have a tear in my eye just thinking about him.

Also lost me neice less than 1 year ago in a house fire still don't think I know she is gone I just remember holding her on my and lap and teaching her all the bad things like a good uncle should

[Phil Kuhn]

My sincere condolences.
:( :( :(